Instead of “why is this happening?”
I ask, “What is this teaching me?”
I understand that all failure is feedback,
And I want to grow in full self-awareness.
Perhaps this rejection is telling me
That I don’t deserve to be loved,
Or this earthquake is teaching me
I live in a chaotic and hostile universe.
I think the shadows in the room
Want me to know I will always be alone.
Perhaps this new and fatal diagnosis is
God’s way of saying all prayers go unanswered.
And I suppose it may be the case that your
Betrayals have taught me to never trust again.
The rain of abuse has flooded my soul,
And my spirit drowns in a sullied sea.
I’ve learned the lessons of helplessness
And despair by the glow of an eternal flame.
In the end, all suffering comes from life,
And a universe free from suffering
Results only from all encompassing death.